Friday, December 13, 2013

Tonight with You



            “So, would you mind helping me to give this gift to him? I know he doesn’t want to meet me, but if I can't give it to him, he will not know the truth. I can’t tell him directly because he refused to meet me.” “I know you have a problem with him, but at least both of you can resolve it.” “No, we can't. This is the only choice, and the truth is here. So please, give it to him.” “Ok, I will give it to him. But how if he refuses it too?” “Just put on his desk.”
            Dear my beloved husband, Abbey…
Today is your birthday, and I know this is the last birthday that I will celebrate with you. But now, I need to accept it. Next week I will leave this town and I will not be with you again. I will spend my last days in Singapore , and follow the chemotherapy. I don’t want you to know it, because I know you will not let me go or you will follow me to go there. I don’t want you to see me when I do the chemotherapy because it will hurt you, it hurt me too to see you being hurted. I love you, really love you. But to be with you for the rest of my life will be just a dream, because this heart and this eyes cannot see you torture, because you should accompany me and throw your dream away because of me.
            Being the one who you love for this six years is a wonderful gift to me. The memories between us are unforgetable moments in my life. To know you, became your friend and your partner, and then became your wife was a blessing for me, and when you put the ring on my ring finger at our wedding day was the precious moment in my life. I cannot believe that we were a couple. But now, we should be a part since I know I have a Leukemia and my days will end soon.
I know it's hard for you to receive our separation, but at least I will not see you hurt because you should stop to chase your dream to become the famous saxophonist. Saxophone, a thing that united us for the first time in that café in Paris. We played “You are Me, I am You”  from David Koz at the first time we meet in Paris, “Endless Love” when you proposed me at Maldives, and when you played  “From This Moment” at our wedding day. I can’t forget that moments.. and I know those moments will be mine and I will bring our sweet and hard memories to heaven. I hope you will forgive me and accept my choice, and I hope you can continue your dream. Thanks for everything, My beloved husband. I will love you forever and a day…
            Now I’m standing here, in front of your grave, and Abbey’s grave. Yes, after he read your letter, he went to airport, and found you right before you crossed the street. But when he pulled you, a car with high speed passed and hitted you two. Yeah, I think God really want both of you together, like your wedding promise. I hope you’ll be happy there with him, my very best friend, Wika.

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